Exorcist Diary #11: Knocked Off Center
Updated: Feb 6, 2020
It was an ugly session today. The demons manifested and were nasty and
very evil. This is one way to know that the person is really possessed- you look
face-to-face at evil; you look into the eyes of evil; and you feel its awful presence. It is unnerving.
I came home and was "off center." I didn't feel right inside. My peace was gone and I felt like crying. I felt like curling up in the corner, or maybe taking a big drink. But those human "remedies" don't help. It can't cure the toxicity of evil.
I went into the chapel and I gave my problem to God. Things weren't right inside and I gave that to him. I vowed to pray for my usual time in the afternoon, about 30 minutes. So, I sat there. Slowly, the peace came back. I was again centered and my heart is at rest.
This is very diagnostic. The woman is clearly possessed. Facing the demons disturbs one's inner peace of heart. Only God can bring it back.
Being an exorcist means looking into the eyes of evil....often. It is unsettling. But God takes care of me. He is there at the end of the day when I need to be put back together.